17/05/15

I'm bored




 now playing: SoKo - We Might Dead Tomorrow

aye people whaddup
so I was just wondering and I've been thinking that, for almost 18 years of my life.. I'm staying single. OK WHATEVER HAHA THAT WASN'T WHAT I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT. Let's just pretend I've never said that. and You've never read that line..

I'm so bored people, I'm so bored I could eat the whole elephant.. ok maybe I'm just hungry..
oh god at this moment I can't even differentiate whether I'm just hungry or totally bored.

I wish I were somebody else,
 no, it isn't like being me sucks. ok maybe it is. but whatever I don't care anyway.
I just wish I can go traveling and meet new people, real new people, not just a new people I met then turns out they're just like the people I already know.
I wanna go to a foreign land, that I've never known exist. um.. ok that is too much but for real, dude I'd like to do that. Someday I'll do it heck yeah,
I want travelling and fall in love and then die happily :) LOL
I just wish my life will be soon colorful since I'm going out of town.
I wish I'll do something great in future,
I wish I'll find that right person and
I wish I can be an awesome mother for my kids.
OK wtf what am I typing how could I even have kids when I am afraid of gettin' married LMAO.
not cool at all ika, not cool.  ah this thing from my past, whatever, I'll get over it by the way.

I wanna do something fun, like doing a charity or something like playing around with the orphans and make them laugh and forget about the sorrow for a moment.
OR MAYBE I COULD JUST FALL IN LOVE AND BE HAPPY HAHA
but no life's cruel, it wont be easy for all of us.

But that's the thing about life I guess..
   It won't get easy, but it is surely worth the prize we'll get when we're not giving up.
There is always a warm sunny day after a cold heavy storm.
all we need to do is  maybe just hang in there and try and failed and try and failed and try and failed and try until life gets bored seeing us failing and rewards us something more than we thought we deserve.
and I know you've been trying so hard and you are now tired but sometimes all you have to do is just get up and stay strong, because duh, we are stronger than we think we are, don't ever let anyone or anything or any situation tell us any different.
Just keep hang in there, life will get you and I to the right place as long as we hold on to Him.

...wtf where da hell did I get this wisdom
I'm so cool omg I can actually say such thing
darn it, I'll definitely marry myself if I could. LOL no, joke, I'm not that self-lover of a person.
Me is just being positive. lmao whatever this nonsense should stop here.

14/05/15

whoop, here we go

I MISS BLOGGING DAMN MUCH,
IT'S BEEN FOREVER SINCE THE LAST TIME I POSTED AN ENTRY AND NOW GUESS WHAT I'LL BE LEAVING  HIGH SCHOOL SOON. QUICKLY, ASAP.

I just can't believe myself that I've grown so much and time flies so fast and how things have changed.. you see, just like C.S Lewis say:

Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different..

 I just..
Damn, I'll go to college and that is also mean, I'll be leaving home and living by myself.
I feel quite excited, and scared at the same. but meh, you know me. I don't care if I'm scared because DUDE! I'M SO LEAVING HOME! YAY HAHA ok joke. I'm a bit excited bcause living by my own means responsibility. and by that, I can show my family that I'm MATURE enough to handle my life.
 the only problem I have now is; where dafuq am i going...
I failed at SNMPTN, and now I have to face the SBMPTN in order to get in to University that I'm dying for.
fml, I still don't understand how people can passed the damn SNMPTN, they're not that smart, tough. um, no offense.
Guess I'm not that lucky, guess I'm a fighter.
Idk, I hate the fact that I still have to study for sbmptn because snmptn hates me.

but it's ok. I'm ok.
I miss you guys anyway.
ah and I've been on blogger since like I was an alien till now I'm a full human.
YAY FOR ME YAY!