Music is Heaven of Earth

 Current Mood: a bit sad
 Listening to: Disney Piano Playlist
 Thoughts of the moment: I still want to be a singer.

omg I've always wanted to be a singer. Deep in my heart I'd like to be on stage and singing and perform. I wanted my music to make people happy through me singing. I wanted my music to make them feel they're not alone everytime they were in a difficult situation. I wanna do something big with music. through music. I wanna do magic with it.

Actually, I don't think my voice is that good or something but I guess.. it isn't that bad lha.. listen to me singing on my soundcloud and tell me what do you think. wait no. I don't want to know what you think about my voice so just keep all the likes/dislikes to yourself. You aren't obligated to like me anyway. and what the hell am I saying it's not like there'll be anybody who'd listen to them, pfftahah!

I've been posting two articles in a row this past two days. I'm so bored I'm a pig I don't do anything besides twerking on the internet. Apparently, I only waste my time mostly by sleeping, breathing, eating, drinking, staring at the ceiling, and internet. wait, it's the same thing like what I've always been doing at class lol. I've never said I was a role model student, yes? my grades wasn't a whore tho. I was doing fine at school. I've made lots memories I'd love to repeat it and make more pretty memories.
To all people at my school, I love you by hating you. peace out
Ah, I still feel peculiar every time I remember I don't have to go to school to heat the chair I used to sit with my smexy ass anymore. I find myself very old (when I'm not even twenty yet) at this freakin state my gosh. hahahhaha

Hahahaha wth I was just talking about my dead dream, and then my recent activity, and then school. this post is a complete non-sense. yup. Idc. I'm the goddess here, I'll do whatever my ass want. I'm so awesome urgh can't.

Ah, I forgot this dream I wanted to tell you guys. Here's the story.
I dreamed that I failed my SAT. -kill self- I'm scared that it'll come true.
Please dear Lord, Jesus, Holy Spirit, Father God, and all Holy things I beg you to help me pass the test. Just this one time. Please cooperate with me. Please make things happen the way I need it to happen.
Please make me pass the SAT. I beg Thou my beautiful Lord. -sobs sobs-
I have no freakin idea what the heck should I do if that disaster is seriously happe.... NO. cAN'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT. JUST.. LET'S NOT.
Pray for me please I need you to pray for me to pass the SAT.
Come, let us have a moment of silence to pray for my result of SAT. SERIOUSLy guys, this shet is deadly important for my life. no joke.

I wish I'll be doing fine. I SWEAR TO GOD I'LL NEVER WASTE ANY SECOND TO SERIOUSLY STUDY AND REST PROPERLY IF I GET INTO UNIVERSTY THROUGH SBMPTN. I really hope I'll succeed. I know everyone wants that. So no, I don't hope. I have to. I have to succeed in order to give my family a better living than this. I want to travel the world in a fancy way with family and give a helping hand to the needy.
Lol that doesnt sound like me uh, if you know me.. you'd never expect to ever hear such a thing from my mouth.
because MEH I'M CRAZY YAY HAHHAHA

Sausade

 Current Mood: Neutral
 Listening to: Family of the Year - Hero
 Thought of the moment: EFF-ING A LOT.

Hi, I feel like blogging but honestly I have no idea what to write so excuse whatever things I'm gonna say here. Because what I'll say is just gonna be random as eff.

Oh have you guys heard about "sausade"?
It's a word from Portuguese and Galician that has no direct translation in English. But you can say that it is a word to describe a deep emotional state of nostalgic or profound melancholic longing for an absent of something or someone that one loves.  All credits goes to Wikipedia lol.

nope.
I'm not feeling sausade at all.
I was just thinking that it sounds cool so HAHAHA.

see I told you this is gonna be random, don't tell me I didn't warn you earlier.. But since you're here and already read the whole bullseye, shall we just go random together? we shall. no. We must. I demand it. I'm the one who have all power in this little website of billion website on the internet, so because you're already here, you must do what I demand you to do, which is : keep reading, leave a comment and please follow my blog. HAHAHA no, seriously.. My blog is like a cemetery.
 -sudden awkward silence-

Ah, I've written that I used to have another blog, haven't I?
SO, I decided to go back on my previous blog and read the whole thing, that.. I won't tell you guys because eff.
Trust me, this is for your own good sake.
I can't believe I was once an innocent-annoying-too-honest-little-shet. Fyi,I started to blog since 2009, I guess.. I can't actually remember but I think it was around that year. That means, I've been on blogger since I was 12 y.o. kid. Can't you imagine what kind of stupid shet I wrote back then?
My gosh. HAHAHAHA

TOO FUNNY YET DISGUSTING I CAN'T EVEN HAHAHAHAHA
I still can't believe I ever wrote about stuff and stuff like that ew. I was gross.
No I didn't mean porn but my love life which was kinda shitty and so... urgh. I can't.
I don't know whether I was just too naive or too stupid as a kid.
Thank god now I'm growing up a bit. ok.. a lot. um... a bit? IDK HAHA

Life's confusing but there's no other way than living it and have fun even on any shitty condition right. Easier said than be done. but let us do our best since we're only given one chance to live the life we live right now.  so, why don't we make it as best as possible, no?
We never know when the death is coming to get us. It's probably just about five meters behind you right now, who knows lel
Until then, let's living life we received as awesome as eff 

me is back yo

BOY - This is the Beginning
LOOK WHO'S BACK? IIIIIIII~  HAHA
I'm so happy because finally. I am able to live my life in peace.
I've taken the SAT (or in indonesia, we called it: SBMPTN), and along with that, I am no longer need to go to Ganesha Operation to study anymore. which means holiday is actually in front of my door right now.. But, I don't actually feel I'm livin' my holidays to the fullest at all since I'm so nervous about the result of my SAT..
I think I did well, It was hard, tho..
I've done my best and I wish God'll help me with the rest.
I really hope I'll pass the SAT and get into the university of my dream..
Please wish me a real luck.
Ah, I'm about to take the psychology, so I'll be studying about human and their weirdness. HAHA yas human, yall nothing but a weird living creature. oh what now? no. I'm not a human.
I'm better than human. I'm awesome. hell yea, like it or not I'm still awesome and not human.
-wagging hair- lol bear with me.

I've been spending my precious holiday with doing things I love, my god.. this holiday's the best holiday I've ever had.
I started my day around 8 or 9, or even 10 A.M. then I took my late breakfast and lunch (yes people, double portion. nope. no regrets mothaeffka), helping grandma with stuffs and when I'm done with house chores. I'll sit quietly in front of my lovely laptop, open google chrome, and googling about my babies, yes, and by babies, I mean BIGBANG.
Five hottie men of humanity.

After three years, they finally have a comeback. EFF, I'M SO HAPPY I  AM LITERALLY CRYING HEHE.
It has been ten years since the first time YG decided to create an Idol Group, BIGBANG.
And I'm about living my life as V.I.P for four years and forever.
Sweet cupcakes, they've grown so much..
Those sexy retards are gettin' old but at the same time, they're getting hotter and hotter than before. They'll be having a concert in Indonesia,
............................................................................................... -sudden silence-
and I'M ABOUT TO DIE AT THAT DAY BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE MONEY TO ATTEND THE CONCERT HAHA FML. Why money doesn't grow from a tree? -sobs sobs-
That is why, I'm making myself to promise to start saving money so next time, I'll be able to buy all the tickets for only myself HAAAHAAAAAA
please say Amen. please.

oh look, it is time for reading some webtoons
so,
adios amigos.