I welcome you, 2K17!

 Current Mood: I feel brand new lol

 Listening to: Lamb - Wise Enough

 Thoughts of the moment: Apparently nothing LOL

oMG Hey dead people!

Haha it's been a long time since the last time I wrote and even in the last entry I also said the same thing LOL. 

I owe you guys a loooooot of stories! I want to tell you everything but I don't even know where to start hahahah

Let me start by telling you, I MADE IT TO UNIVERSITY! CHEERS MOTHAFOKERS!

MWAHAHA ok chill I'm sorry I got too hyped.

I was not only getting in to "university" university.. what makes it kinda dope is that it's a pretty much a popular and prestigious university in my country. GUESS! 

Lol yup I got into University of Indonesia and I am currently majoring in Tourism. It's a vocational program, though, well who cares, I made it y'all.

I ain't no longer an useless bum.
well who am I kidding I'm still a bum.
I'm trying to get back on track and write more often, No one will ever read this, though, I'll still write since I have so much in my mind I need to get it out. So yeah
It will be abstract and makes no sense but ain't that what makes human, human? lol

How's college?
College is cool. I made new friends and lost few friends
but that's life. people come and go, 'aight? it's their choice to comeback or never.
I'm the one who always left, though. HAHA LOL 
why, you asked ? because I don't feel like wasting my time with people who can be fixed. Not that I try to be manipulative or sociopath but there are these people who don't know what they did wrong and when they do, they don't make a move to make it right. I don't have time for those kind of people,  I'd rather read some webtoon lol. Because there's always time for webtoon. 
I'm sorry not sorry.

My love life?
Lol what a question, I think that's enough of question now, my child.
And yes you knew the answer already. yes. yes. now would you kindly let me leave? thank you
/silently goes sobbing and walks away.
Nah man.. I don't have a love life, I don't feel the need too. I don't know? Maybe I'm difficult to love, or loved.
I mean there were these times when I feel like I wanted it but then I thought,

"what will a boyfriend do any good when I'm already happy surrounded by friends that make me laugh when I need to? and buy me food when I'm outta cash ? LOL"

pLease gawd I don't wanna be a cats-dogs lady but I won't force myself to love when I'm not ready though.

Whatever
I'll focus on finishing my study quick and make lots of cha-ching. 
Love will come on its own when it's time.
ew tf I'm saying that is so najong I canNOT.

HAPPY 2K16!

OMFG HELLO DEAD PEOPLE!
ALTHO NOW DATE IS JAN 17TH, IT'S STILL NEW YEAR AMIRITE?
CAN YOU SMELL THE REFRESHED SOULS TO WALK ON 2K16? NO?

ok.

I miss blogging very muchchchchchch, 

I know I don't really write and when I do, I write nonsense-unimportant-brutal shiet.
To be honest, this year will be my five years on Blogger. And. I Still. Didn't. Achieve. Anything.
/dead audiences gives a slow claps Thank you.. Thank you all.
I mean I've tried to make blogging as an allowance but.. LOL 
My brain has been on Hibernate Mode for a long time I can't come out with any Idea, like, seriously.
I think the last time I'm using my brain was when...ugh...wait.. I don't even remember lol
I have serious problem, don't I 

Oh yeah just like an annual routine, I've made my 2K16 Resolution!
Wait. no. I've never made any resolution before, so, this is more like my premiere annual routine lol
yup. I have been living a chaotic life. damn. wow. omfg. my life's a mess

Apparently, 2K15 wasn't really my year. I had so many failures in 2K15.
I prefer to not talk about it, but just like what them successful people always say:

“failure is better teacher than success."

Because to be fugdin' honest, I'm a person who's hard to motivate.
No. it is not because I watch too much porn. No. it is also not because I fap a lot.
It is because, I have low self-esteem, I used to like to compare me and my life with them who have a good easy life.
Pretty face, Awesome talents. Sociable personality. Born with gold spoon on their mouth.
wOW, man.. like, are you even a human? do you ever heard about despair? failures? disappointment? I mean you have it all, and I know you must have your own darkest time but..

Is have-it-all people's despair same as so-so people's?
Like your life is complete, what kind of things that could ever makes you sad? lol

I'm not that kind of a person anymore, Although, I still feel a bit like that,
So now I'm teaching myself to not just see something only from my POV.
Try to see anything from various perception/perspective, there are so many chances and possibilities. And not all failures, failures. Maybe it's just a stepping stone, Maybe it's just a way of God to prepare me to something big.
So even if it's hard to get on my knee after falling hard and ugly, I have to stay determined (cr: Undertale)

One thing I learned about all successful people. they have two commons in general:

• Life f#cked them hard and made them fell into the a very bottomless pit in their life. But..
• They saw it as an opportunity to learn how to fly in their own very way when they're about to hit the bottomless pit. In simple word, they didn't give up. They THOUGHT about giving up, but they didn't and because of that the Giant on their subconscious mind awaken. THAT's why they are where they are now.

Therefore, you and I have to keep it in mind that. maybe when we feel like we have no other chances/choices, and life's nothing but more like an awful scary nightmare.. it's because we are about to go spectacular. All we have to do is the same as them, successful people: get the hell up. don't give up. No need to try hard, try smart.
Eventually, we'll wake our Giant inside us and becoming that person we've always been dreaming of. Because the best version of you that you could think of, is actually the real you.
I hope. together, we can pass this beautiful year, everyday. with positivity that this year is gonna be our year. no matter what.